Post by Deceiver on May 18, 2021 21:46:24 GMT -5
With everything I've dragged in
Venomous beings and all
It's nice to think that everything falls into place
But it doesn't
So guilty
So weak
So lost without you
Now I know so guilty
So weak
Stop calling me
Please keep calling me
Open your mouth
to see if it's the truth
Turn around so you
can't see me say
I MISS YOU
Stop calling
Keep calling
Stop fucking calling me
alone again, stuck within my own skin. when did everything go so terribly wrong? the thought of my worlds crashing and burning all around me was only a figment of my irrational yet thoughtful behavior. every step took, and every move made, why can't we just start this over and do it right this time? for me? [no, shut up. you're better than to be on hands and knees pleading with this whore for your gratification. rise my champion. rise. she was but the weight upon your neck keeping you from greatness. we shoulda cut her fuggin head off years ago] i stumble through this barren microcosm that is my life. my direction was lost the moment that my tranquility was raped, and taken from me. so i aimed wildly blind and ended up... here? or was it there? to be fair, i don't think it matters anymore. nothing really mattered anyway, come to find out. [you're better than this. don't listen to him. she was always there for us. open your eyes] life is just the big grand show and we are all nothing but characters manipulated to fit into some egomaniacs great vision. you wanna know what i see? human waste, as far as the eye can see. from the highest of mountaintops to the lowest ocean floor, your decadence paints the flesh and ethereal of our mother. our provider. and it is time to strike back the balance of nature and put this putrid pile of maggots into her coital of dirt and mineral. and if these damn trees don't get the fuck out of my way, imma burn all of them down too. the audacity to block my vision. heh. where the fuck am i? what the fuck am i doing? [you have finally been put on your path child, your destiny awaits you. total annihilation of this unjust and unforgiving world. it must burn as you have been burnt. they must know the presence of your wrath. they need to feel again] The road felt better than the mud as I stepped onto it through the wilderness drenched in the sea of tears. it was dark here on this pavement, and far too silent. up a ways a bit was a lantern seen through what i ponder is a window. could there be shelter? as i took a step forward, this feeling overtakes me. now, i can't quite comprehend what it is that i felt, but it was an energy far worse than any papa legba had surrounding him. no, the power of this land was different. it reeked of nothing but death and decay. this piqued my curiosity as i continued to traverse up the road until i came to the bottom of a hill. [stop you ar..heh heh, don't worry dear viewer, we won't hear from that miserable fuck again] where the hell did the lantern go? i turn to look back in the other direction, but it too was at the bottom of a hill. all around me i turn and see that i have sunken into an unforgiving hole. my hands scratch and claw at the mud, it just slipping and sliding, making me feel so sick. my stomach turns into the stiffest of knots and i curl over into a lump of pathetic shit exploding my guts directly in front of my shattered face. god damnit you worthless fuck. look what you have done to us.. AGAIN. you'll never be nothing with that sticking out of your arm. nothing. My head shakes, as I am sitting on the side of this nowhere road. in my arm lay my instrument of destruction, but the only thing in my life to never, ever leave me.
WHAT IS DEATH...BUT REBIRTH?
DESTRUCTION OF OLD BREEDS THE EXCELLENCE OF NEW
GLORY GLORY GLORY HALLELUJEAH
my eyes adjust to the world around me, and it still weeps in self pity. no change could be found, except for the burning going around. disaster could not be adverted this time i am afraid. so i push myself up and look ahead to what is next. i am closer to the glow of an out of place lantern, swearing right here and now that i could feel a damning sense of warmth from that faint glow. it is at about this time when an unruly screeching whips through the air and slaps my ear drums. what was this shrill and why.. oh why.. did it give me such a thrill?[yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. yes. yes.] my moment in the gutter had subsided as now the only thought to permeate my cranial space is that of wicked intent. i had no idea of where that sound had come from, but from the echoes of my mind, i remember it far too well. too well for my wife's liking. well if she won't have me, then nobody will be free of me. now i will inch myself ever deeper into the glory hole, reshaping the reality which surrounds us until it suits me perfectly. it is this moment that will be remembered for an eternity here after, while the thought of you will slowly fade into the dark empty husk of yesterday incased in ice. saved for a later date to shatter into hopeless remains, scattered across the land to give it maybe just a little more beauty. and then you have my permission to rot in pieces with the rest of em whore. suddenly, a man is standing before me. out of the corners of my eyes i spot the other two coming from each peripheral.
"..you've come to the wrong place friend.."
oh.. have i?
