Post by Ryan Elias on May 3, 2020 18:47:35 GMT -5
So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Are you listening?
Do you think you understand what is happening?
Can you handle the reality around you?
We all think that deep down inside we understand the world, that we know just what to expect, but then that world punches you in the nose. How ready for that punch are you? The answer is never ready enough, because if you were then you wouldn’t be sitting there worried about what might happen. There would be no what ifs, there would be no thoughts of do I have all that I need to get the job done. No you would simply be ready to go, you wouldn’t need to try and puff out your chest or build up your confidence, it would already be there, because you would already be ready.
But this is a different world than what you thought you were living in isn’t it? This isn't a fun time at the local pool, no this is something wicked and sinister that you don’t understand, something that you can’t fathom even if you tried to, this is a reality that you are not ready for, because you can’t be ready for it. There is no preparation for what I am offering, no getting out of bed and rolling over and embracing the day and what is to come. Because I represent what you fear the most, I represent what you deep down inside try and push away, try and hide from the world, I represent the fear that you have.
Sure you will mask that fear with the warm embrace of something comfortable, partake in that moment of exchange that removes your mind from what you think is coming. But when that three minutes of fun is over, and make no mistake it is only three minutes, you will still be faced with that linger question, am I ready for what is coming, can I handle this? Deep down inside you will hear that answer, that answer that you fear so much, NO I AM NOT READY, HOW COULD I BE READY!
Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words, I don't just say
And nothing else matters
Is this for real?
What is happening?
Why me?
This is very much your fate, very much the thing that you don’t want it to be. Because you and I both know the sin that you carry, we both know the things you have done to try and gain some level of approval. Because that is the validation that you need, the love and adoration of someone else, for your own belief and love isn’t enough. No you need someone else to come to your rescue, you need someone to show the world who you are, to tell you are worth something. Being yourself isn’t enough, so you push to be someone else, seek the being that you want in things that are not in your control.
But don’t worry, I can take that fear from you, I can give you the strength to be who you were really meant to be. But you can only have it if you ask, can only have it if you desire it, and then you would have to let go of all the false that you have created, you would have to be something you have never known. You would have to be the one thing that you are most terrified of, yourself. Deep down you have hidden that person, behind a wall of lust, a wall of pain, and a wall of anger, pushed so far down that you don’t even hear the screams of yourself wishing to break free.
I can help you with that, I can free you of that burden, but only if you want it. See that is what I do, I give people the chance to be the person they were meant to be, to be something more than they are now, I give them freedom. Do you desire that, is that what you want? Maybe you feel that twinge, hear that feint yell of your inner voice screaming out yes, and maybe you know that is what you want, what you truly need in this world, but you are scared of it, because it means shedding that needy persona, unmaking all the false that you have worked so hard to cultivate.
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Don’t do this!
Please I don’t want it!
You can’t take this from me!
That’s just it though, while you try and hide who you are, I see through you, see the real you down to your core. I know who you are, know who you are trying to hide from the rest of the world, and I won’t let you destroy yourself to live a false dream. You were meant for something greater. You just have to ask me, just open that mouth and ask for what I am offering, it’s the only path to your redemption, the only way that you walk away from this with a shot at a life that is truly worth anything.
So while you feel that thrust of power, feel that tingle that you enjoy so much, enjoy that embrace that gives you the momentary peace that you desire, allow your mind to wander, to take in what I am telling you. Give it a deep dark thought, because I offer so much more, offer what you know you want. No matter how much you deny it, no matter how much you drown it out with sex and alcohol, no matter how much you think you can’t be something greater, there is alwasy one option.
That is the beauty of this life, the beauty of what I offer, you have a choice. But be careful, because the wrong choice has consequences, pain that you cannot fathom, pain that you don’t want, and ache that will be with you forever. So dream of what you think you want, but know that I am going to take all that you think you want from you, strip you of the false sense of happiness you have, and expose you to the world for the liar you are.
OPHELIA PAIN!!!!!
YOU STAND ACCUSED!!!!!
LECHERY!!!!